This was the day i've been wanting to arrive for several weeks. I was finally going to give the girl i love (Emma) the present i've thought about for 4 weeks (on the day after i cried my eyes out after arguements which was on the night of the day i last went plymouth). The present wasn't much looks wise. But it was one of the most meaningful presents i've ever done. It was a card with a usb stick. That and a small sum of cash for her to use.
So after a quick fap. i got changed, brought my laptop in my rucksack. then ran to the bus. it was 10:12. i was wating for the Bus. Then i had the guy that i went to his place to fix his laptop call me just as it arrived. grrr. He asked me to see if its ok for my work to order a part for him and fit it on his laptop. I said yes and while doing this, multitasking and paying for the bus fare. it was £6.10 which is now the usual. Text my mum once the bus was moving and then listened to music then played some Galage 88 G 30th Edition for a while. The bus was crowded and then at Yeleverton, a mum with two kids was sat next to me. Did piss me off.
It was getting by Morrisons at outland road and the roadworks there was bringing a very long queue, and by chance the bus was stopping there. So i got off and started running. It felt like my old days at crappy city plym ( http://www.cityplym.ac.uk ). Then running all the way down that road, past DHS and then to the pub at the corner where the road splits. I never saw the bus again which means i ran quite well. But now was my run. Shown below:
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at this point i was at the 3rd white dot approx. So i ran and stuck on Worsely Road for the rest of hers. Then once i got to Lidls, i went in there for a little time to well. Get some confidence since this was one important decision. Then i went to her work and a guy with black short hair and a stubble beard served me. I said "could you give this to a friend of mine that works here", he said "sure, can do" if i can recall and i said "Cheers then, Thanks" and headed out. I felt really proud and relieved.
Then i was looking around in the co-op just above from her place to see for any reduced sandwiches or food. Then i was supposed to meet one of Emma's friends at her flat in St judes. So i text her asking if it was still ok. But didn't get a reply so i tweeted her roommate HERE and asked. That was her reply. So i ran back to town, following the same route as above, except as i got to the pub. My mum called me asking me to buy her some trackies in Primark, she loves Primark stuff alot :). This was at the pub on the corner, the weatherspoon one.
So i ran into town then got a text from Jess saying she was working as well, but her roommate (who i tweeted and linked reply) was free. so i had a weird feeling i wasn't wanted there. So i walked around town by myself for a few hours. Brought my mum some nice gray yoga leg trackies from Primark for £5.00.
I went to iceland to look around and brought part of my lunch, then went Wilkinson and brought the other part of my lunch, one of emmas friends served me. She was like a bronze statue but has a nice accent and asked if i got the present to her. I said i did and she didn't see the cash i gave her when she asked for payment. in total lunch came to £1.57.
Then later on (around 2:10pm) i went to Grosvenor Casino and spend my £5.00 BJ voucher and betted £10. so i had 3 £5 chips. only used one, won twice, lost once and ended up with £20, felt nice, but it was 1 on 1, me vs the dealer. Then walked around some more then brought the Playstation 3 Game called Catherine. Which i did play a demo on on my YT channel
My boss called me about some database problem while i was buying it, nearly forgot my wallet in HMV. the Game was £39.99. I really recommend it. Especially with the amount of males in Plymouth and possibly Tavistock that apparently cheat on their girlfriend, this will scare you completely and change you i hope.
Anyways, looked around some more, then started to run home. My left foot was starting to be in pain by this point, so i didn't run far. only back to the stop i got off at (but on the opposite side of the road). I was knackered and soaked of sweat.
Then went home and one of my work colleagues was on the bus and a guy that one time tried playing with my moobs on the bus to crappy city plym. Still refering to the past mistakes i've done in my life Josh Vernon was.
Then got off at lidls and ran home and relaxed.
This was a relaxing day, pretty much just playing Catherine.Well after going to work for a few hours to fix something urgently. But then Emma text me saying about the present, she was worried that i wouldn't have money. I really tried to assure her that i had enough and said that "if i couldn't afford it or needed the money, i wouldn't of done it" which is one teaching my grandmother says to me still to this day. But she really felt guilty which made me feel even more gulity for trying to give her something to make it up to her since i felt gulity after the arguments 4 weeks ago :(. But we came to a compromise even though i didn't want her to do it. But it means she keeps the money without having to pay me back whatsoever :). I really wish i had once chance to be with her in a relationship. But my luck and dreams don't come true :(.
Well i had work. it was quite quiet but i did have a home visit and got a £10 tip to "spend on a pint" even though the customer didn't know i don't drink. Very kind chap. Lunch was not too bad: £1.67.
Well this was a really quiet day. Although i had a home visit before i went to work. Just to untick "use proxy settings" in internet options. Then ran to work from there and pretty much focused on one job which was nice . I did skip lunch since there was nothing cheap to buy and i kind of didn't feel hungry. But that then ran home and then started editing a video i recorded a few days ago. The last world in Scott Pilgrim Vs the World and the ending. Then here i am, typing this up.
Well i have nothing to look forward to for a few weeks or at all for now. :( But all i can do it wait for that chance to open up and i take it, since i don't want to move on to a 7th girl and end up in the same situation thats happened for the past 5 times. It fucking hurts and makes me feel like maybe i'm not cut out for this. People say to me "Relationships are overrated, all you need is your friends", but maybe they forget unlike most people, i don't have friends i see everyday, or even every week. I end up sticking by myself or with a internet enabled device. Thats what gets me through, with social networking like Twitter and Facebook, i actually get to chat to people that most are nice to me.
And with that not, Goodbye for this week :)