So, it's not even 2 weeks since the previous post and its been a fucking stress and a half nightmare and I know things are going to be even tougher and well I've been making more mistakes and It made me realise I've had burnout or at; least that case of burn out to deal with and the mistakes at work just feel to pile up,
But it also has potential for the blips to be good for the future I hear or if that's just my mistakes popping through yet again. But this was luckily the time I COULD Get a DAY and even a morning off this year but here we go on what was to come and boy Did I REALISE some Shit I pulled.
March starts off with a Messey pancake day
|The chicken dippers and the bottle of water|
|The start of the pancakes|
|A bit of a mess for it|
|Looks more solid|
|a better attempt|
|This one actually lifts|
|It's sort of solid|
|Maybe more squishy here|
|Now looks scrambled|
|A bit more scrambled|
|Now looks like a shape|
|The finished result|
But that was nice to chow down with and then it was a case of just catching up with work and it seems repairs were starting to flood in again and that was going to be more stress to deal with and expensive, but little did I know it was going to be more expensive with how begging goes.
The march that starts to really show its toll of bad choices
|the rubicon bottle|
|The brisket or chicken with the carrots, crisps and sugar puffs too.|
https://t.co/3CvCW8p3SB Thanks for the messages for reminding me when the blog went down for 2 days or so. The blog is now back up. But I've been posting there more often in the past few months— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 4, 2022
|The Beef with the black bean and rice and the rice cakes|
But then it was to reply that I would get that on Friday which I didn't get the voucher for them but the Netflix one was sorted. BUT knowing my luck I would need it for the weekend in case there was a reply, but Little did I know it was soon time to get some CLOTHES from what I was about to be messaged. But there is always a catch which comforts eating is involved with finding out some bad news But even that means a Gift card and an extra £1.05 for it.
So let's be clear on the mistake of what this was going to mean and actually my skin was getting to a very itchy section of the left side of the leg which in terms was making work very itchy and that was me dealing with this for at least the past 3 days which was causing some pain in work and it had the leg in some nasty rashes but was it heat, fleas from Rosie or Finley or something else. But it was going to be the case of it vaded since on the way home It was finally time to get some bits at Lidl and well it offered such as the Vitamin C tablets, the Naturis smoothies
|The lidl shop at the clear evening|
But before this, the chance of having to then get more bits and pieces and actually take a big gamble for a fashion choice gift card, To give context, things at the time seemed like it had gotten quick and things are outgrown and since work for her end was going to happen, so clothes are needed and well me trying to skim for was going to be a problem for it. But while this was close to happening, I got home to have a lush Indian takeout.
|the Indian takeout on a Saturday night|
So let's be clear, from what was about to happen, it meant having to go to work after having the first SUNDAY off since the beginning of February in that side of things and this is going to be where getting this gift card sorted and the chores of emptying cardboard fro the shop which as been piling up for nearly 3 months as well, well a small part of that has gone and it will taker a lot more to deal with later.
We have to begin with this choice of helping out with outgrown clothes, so the plan was "You Choose" to get a card sorted out for another IOU in work and this was to get the chance to make more effort but it also was the case that it was not going to be enough and maybe things were telling me I Pushed myself a bit too far for what was going to be the big mistake in the past 2 months. So that was the first part of the plan but her budget for Primarni was going to be more than I wanted. So I got the gift card planned and then some cardboard was taken back home. Then we got some Sushi and bits from lidl after a dogwalking and it felt nice for a Sunday lunch of a light one.
|The sushi and the salad and extras for the lunch|
But then it was more wind and it was close to being the time to finally get some things done and do a vlog but even that was going to be a tricky one since it was how to do it and also with Rosie wanting ball most of the time it gets hard to even talk and film without her barking her head off. But Also things got a bit more expensive since the gift card ended up not working which means more sending over for this and was getting a bit out of control for things. It makes that buzzing feeling well disappear to a well I've kept making more mistakes and I really need to stop. But it's to argue with me and also get a shoutout done for someone that DM'med on insta the very SAME Day.
|The hat and the lead selfie|
This lead me to get some preparation with the bike again since the next day was going to be a long with going to Lydford then back to lamerton which actually I was not prepared for the repair I was cut out for but it also felt nice to have a smaller type of roast on that night, Tartare sauce really does go well.
|The Roast on a Sunday night|
We then go to get the battery charged and mote chatter with WhatsApp but it was feeling Like I'd really gone too far and feelings felt more of others than happiness. But it was also the legs getting those bites and red ashes which was making it irritable but it was soon to disappear as the weather was getting better or so we thought.
|The Rashes starting to go but were still sore to touch|
Nope since i dont shave legs or thighs, since its very itch like fly bites— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 7, 2022
The week of losing sense and proper thought train
|Heading back from Lydford|
So this visit was then getting from here to Lamerton, but only with 1,2 bars of battery left or so which means it was making sure to conserve the power in case it from those hills and that slightly strong wind was appearing as well. Eventually, I was dealing with this customer which took longer and was pushing things on time for its limits, and that week was going to provide the stress on that side.
|The £1.05 for sausage rolls on Tuesday|
But then it comes to more long days and then it comes to more stupid mistakes to happen such as burning an envelope of cash by PURE fucking accident after another long day of work and getting home like 8pm and having leftover food. But it was also quiet enough in work to get some of the GT7 Retail kits opened and build since my rep was asking about the GT7 pics due to requirements and there were MORE boxes to yet carry down for other launches of games.
|The GT7 Standee|
But then it was getting to also deal with the fact of after that lush leftovers meal and spending time with family, it was turning into a point of going too far, mistakes were being made and really I was in a stage of regret, especially with Alice was begging for help for potentially having to move from her flat to her parents place on the weekend due to something about debt the actual owner has to pay off and wrong place and wrong time mentality. I started to shed tears on my own doings for what some say is the right thing and well this was where I had to really understand and think about easing this potential relationship off since it does not feel like love, it feels like a one-sided love affair. There was a former friend that got concerned and knew who she was but more on that later. Plus I also was asked about having Maccies with someone that is a fan of mine but was a bit of weight loss.
|Chicken Tikka Masala with Scone, brownies and even Honey puffs with mayo.|
But then it was more work to attempt to catch up with and longer days ahead which to be fair, I was still collapsing mentally at this point from how things have been and well, I miss someone from my past whom I know I've been saying sorry out in the open air that so many times and direction feels like its collapse since both of us sort of didn't go as far as well in honesty, I wanted it to but it was getting more mistakes from Keyboards to end up being warped when fitting to even just more cases of underselling items and some keeping tabs or less charging, even on Visits. Also More honey puffs.
|Another chips based meal but with added Honey puffs|
I've had a fair few things to talk on and catch up with. Also sadly bad habits really die hard and means more than I should have done and really stupid mistakes I've got to re sort out happen— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 11, 2022
But apart from that, calling 999 when someone collapsed outside my shop and even breathing, just got told to get a defiubualtor was tricky, then 15 minute wait before just having to press the button is a delay— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 11, 2022
|Chicken with the added salad, olive bread and onion rings which are not as nice tasting as the bigger backs from other brands compared to the snacktastic ones here|
Also unrelated but removal vans for £95 in Brum for a 40 minute distance is expensive ? or probably fair price due to #petrolgate— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 11, 2022
But it was finally the weekend after this eventful and it was going to go not as planned such as making some Crispy seaweed which actually BURNT my Mouth and that made it sore for the next 4 days at least after. I kid you not. A Bikelock was purchased which later on would mess things up quicker than I expected.
|The garlic bread with the extremely hot crispy seaweed|
At the End of one £££ chapter
|The coriander smoothie|
If I tell you something, promise you won’t repeat it ?
|The Double rainbow while dogwalking|
But it then leads to dryer weather and then it was time to get the bike lock I purchased on the Saturday for £25 and got it set up, it means I don't have to have the keys breaking on that side of things and it makes it a bit quicker to get it locked for when it needs to be.
|The Bike Lock|
|Getting it fitted and easy to lock|
Also I think many of you were right from what happened a while ago and I've just had it confirmed to me, so I need to plan next stages of what to do— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 13, 2022
Also you were right. There is a chap on the other side. But this is my fault for being stupid— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 13, 2022
*So fucking tempting to inseert exported chat here but complications I dont want to deal with right now
|The chopsticks with the casserole and the Chinese 5 spice|
and one to another ££ chapter
St Patrick's Day to a tea total person is a normal day— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 17, 2022
Never been drunk nope— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 17, 2022
So it was to get the work done and the usual time of more customers to deal with but a visit at the end of the day was nice and this was going to face with a text, a text which felt good and at the same time repeating what I just left with Alice. A £13 and I know it was going to be a why. but also another time from the past ends up in a message of telling her about her partner but it was more being thought of as a friend and I get that but with this lifestyle, it can be tricky to have and feelings do get important but I know on my end I didn't get feelings for that reason. But to be fair, It was never being asked for money which was a nice bonus and feeling a bit less of my bad habits, well there was the plan to get food and have called while she eats it but that might be a far away happen at points. But it was nice to get time to get lunch for what was the last time since typing this up. Plus it was nice to see an old friend that popped in, turns out he's doing a lot better than me but did invite me to bristol for a hang out at some point so that is something to think about too.
|The lunch from that Thursday|
|Also, the shop was getting stocked and some consoles were potential for an arena|
|The spicy spuds, fishcakes and chips with the curry sauce|
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|The mix of the food and actually it was like an omelette of sweet chilli and also adding some crispy onions in there|
But then it was later that night while doing online work and watching Spider-man and I got a text which was pretty deep and I had a feeling things were going to be questionable at the best of times, sure it means a chance to get the new year's resolutions done or just send up spending another whack, I mean even as I type this it gets more money spent which is what I'm about to experience
|The cookie and onion sandwich|
But after seeing my grandparents, it turns out my sister came over to visit since she had free time while her fiance was golfing, so it was for a chance to go Morrisons for lunch and actually that was on her for paying bless her. Now we eventually got there and we ended up passing sons of the friend of dads that got my parents covid a month ago and it was me just hands behind my back with a mask on while listening in and hearing about how they have matured and things like that. But then it was time to tuck in after a 15-minute wait for the Chicken tikka masala as ever. The spice with it makes it much nicer for the most part too, even with the nice chips and the mayo, but the thing is that the exact sauce they use is NOT sold in the store?
|The chicken tikka masala and the Rice with the chips.|
then it was a case of getting that eaten and then it was time to eventually get some more bits from Morrisons with them since there was the kebab meat and maybe something else, but it was then time to notice the weather getting more cloudy and also it felt less of the summer vibe but that was to come back in the later time.
This week has been mistakes and more drama to deal with. But all I can do is sign and ask myself how long before I repeat the same mistakes with someone else, answer is almost 2 days after a end with what happened from the virtual date that didn't happen— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 18, 2022
I really need to sort content out before I feel like I'm a washed up former youtuber— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 18, 2022
Also a girl I even got flowers many years ago for and liked turns out she's a bigger feedee than I was expecting or its too good to be true— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 18, 2022
Also someone I do like Did ask me out to get maccies with her so that might actually happen maybe this year— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 18, 2022
i mean I've not been since November 2019 when I had that and the night before someones leftover food and a price medium cup of sprite— Mattie LT Marker (@omracer) March 18, 2022
|Mum got me a snack and a can of Viomto which I still had the bottle of strawberry water at work|
|The Rustlers for the way home from Spar|
But it was then that Saturday and well it was back to what feels normal and...fuck, it was working the weekend. So it was some work to get done with A PC to sort out and also hopefully the chance for consoles to sell.1 customer bailed out, 1 not got back and 1 texted to say that they would pick up Tuesday. But it was nice to not worry, the weather was nicer and some games were bought as well. But in the end, it was time to get home and then sort of relax and sort of get some more online work done to get some extra funds for this coming week which I did realise I'll need from the favours I was going to be asked. Plus the packing of mothers day parcel was to be done too.
|Mother's day presents|
Mother's day of cleaning and work ish
|The tidied sort of area|
|a Cleaner floor than before but for how long this will last for|
|The Rustlers with shreddies, salad, chicken and the sweet chilli lemon soy sticks|
|Before bike clean|
|After a bit of a bike clean|
But then it was to get some catch up sorted out and more chance to get this post done since it has been a time of not getting shit done and also enjoying the Classic Spider-man a fair bit too. Which then leads to a luckily quiet Monday./
|The mini shop in co-op on a Monday evening|
But then it leads to more work to deal with, this time we had to deal with a nice plan to be able to test an RX 570 due to a customer having some issues on an old Lenovo motherboard. But that was also the time of a LONG visit which meant I Didnt get home until about 7pm from a FB business lesson to teach, Bu then it was time for some tea before then going to lidl and going shopping with mum since there was some bit she needed and there was a problem with the van for dad which caused a fair bit of issue and will do in the next weeks or so. But a shop in both places. It felt nice and quiet to ship in the night too since there is a good quiet vibe to it, but it shows that some things do run out.
|That sun with dynamic lighting over the river|
|It feels nice in's way|
|A view of the virtual St Ives|
|That virtual beach of Penzance|
- Sort out the Down their problems and prepare to be able to have sex - Work is easing off but it will be a fair bit of time before this happens
- Have branded fast food with someone outside the family - Things might be changing on this if the plans come out
- Tweet more - Its short bursts of things and fails in a way
- Try to make more videos at least 2 per month - 0 videos in 2 months = FAIL
- Do more Day out vlogs - No luck so far but if the weather gets like this, it's going to be better for that and might find the above one fixed. There are some Mondays off in May coming up as well.