A 5 year #reflection

Well, its now been 5 years since i made a promise to myself and also starting to sign up for one social media account which has changed my life completely, thats a bad thing to say in some people's minds, but it has.

And by that i mean Twitter. Yep the social network people have been arrested for using and speaking their mind, the one where a small twat like me managed to get over 1,000 people reading what my thoughts in life are and one where my mind has been opened up to the variety of life and how i've made friends which would never of been possible.

So, all i can still remember is i was just feeling low after losing Abbey, man its been over 5 years since i brokedown in tears because i lost one of the most amazing gingers and girl at the time that made me happy and i lost the chance and lost her forever. Even though from what i heard at Goose Fair. Shes now with someone else, which is a good sign i suppose but still a chance lost and even though i should venture back, its still too late.

But i sat down on a single armchair sofa and set up twitter, it was something that some people on fb said to me, now i never go back, its been like a child, raising it, telling it stories of how good/shit/fun/unfun my life actually is, maybe some people listened and maybe they don't actually give 2 shits or some just go "LOL" at the things from the food, to the actual fantasies i end up having over people that are comfy to cuddle, dance alot but eat like an immobile feedee (like peri) but its been one heck of a ride.

I mean, the way that i've now got over 68,000 tweets in 5 years is pretty insane, thats 13,000 tweets per year i make, which is from the flirting with mcdonalds workers who i have been close to falling for, asexual mermaids working in nightclubs, netflix lovers who are giantesses with a shy smile and soft thighs, best friends, super sized goddesses on paysites, even one i've signed up to since we have been good friends from twitter and even one girl i fell in love with and realised the same thing that happened in the past happens again. It all adds up.

I've seen twitter change over the years, sure there have been times where the RT button wasn't the best thing but its much easier, DMming people hasn't taken off normally but businesses have been using it for customer services which has even surprised me (aka the moment i had a Irish BT rep call me on the toilet hours later after i reported the house phone down for over 4 weeks, that was just before a night out). There have also been to many memes and shitty quotes going around, which just makes it a not so happy time. But one of the best things is that the adult industry has thrived on it, which of course can have its moments but some of the sights i've seen are amazing, ok more to the plus sized nudity which has been a sometimes smile to my day as well as my dick, (yup its cringey but that is the honest truth).

Of course, I've not just had good experiences, i've had shit ones too. From arguing with Londoners over a girl that i found attractive to the amazing degree but i still can't believe she was stupid enough to be knocked up, but that the society in Plymouth these days. There was also a time i was arguing with a shit rapper, since i was friends with his ex and he was trying to be all Stuck up and like a proper pimp.

Then there was the time i fell out with a Big Cutie from london, but that was partly my fault, except then you have the annoying situation of a girl that was a mcdonalds worker (she works with jess i think) that took the piss out of her then although she said sorry to her, i was blamed for RTing her every so often, but i did send bonnie 2 boxes of Lindt Ball chocolates via amazon wishlists as a sorry months later, as a surprise sorry type thing, but that i don't think ever got received or i heard nothing back, but thats fair enough.

Then there was only December last year when a shitstorm happened which i could of changed fate and enjoyed something with Emma if i only gone ahead with a plan to win her heart using the Lion king tickets, i still SMH (smack my head) about not doing that, but i know swaggy was only trying to help but that completely fucked up alot of chances i could of had.

Then there was that time, which my heart smacked into pieces when i walked out of wagamamma's and i found out the one person that made me happy and i loved and still love was engaged, i still wish that never happened and it still hurts months later and i still count the months since that moment, fucking fucking fuck. But i just run with it now and hope something happens and then i need to get my act together and prove myself, i will still never forgive myself for not taking up the chances i could of had. But its that knack or that thing, the same things can repeat themselves in different ways years later.

Then there was that time that i won a Battlefield 3 or 4 Dog tag from game by the sundial but i never picked that up, contests i've never had luck with in general, but with twitter, there is no luck there either. Which doesn't bother me as such since i know i just don't bother entering many since its not worth the hassle, i just save up hopefully enough. That and i've met people that follow me and some i follow back which when you think about it, its more than enough and happy that the people you can do a @ to you can shake hands with, even if some are with people they don't deserve, and yes i've done that twice.

But its a sign where its helped my journey and also hindered it. So i know that although nothing is perfect, there is a point that if it wasn't for getting on twitter, i would of missed out on many opportunities and i've only missed out on a minor few but i still bother and try to get on as and when.

Sadly, there are times where shit has gone down and i've been blocked, which some are fair enough but some were wayyy uncalled for. All i can do is list the top 10 or so...

• Emma  - We were best friends at one point but we fell out since she was worried about how she looked :( when she looked pefectly fine as she was, had some amazing curves :)
• Hannah  - Another girl but this time she was a goddess from east cornwall but shes lost that amazing curves which when i still see how she used to look, i still wish i could of at least taken her on a date as she was. 
• Chloe  - Once she offered to be my girlfriend for £100, she was a good looking blonde too, but shes lost some of that, even though i sat right next to her at charleys 20th, which we actually talked..
• BC Bonnie - I've mentioned what happened already
• Callie - I think i just pressed the follow button then blocked without a word said to either me or i said to her
• Cassi - She was nice but after what happened with Emma, that was the end of it.
• Viccie - she is one amazing ginger and i liked her as she was, but she didn't like herself :(
• Emily - I think we just fell out in general
• Kerrie - She was quite fun, ate a fair amount but was a ST so that was just a no luck.
• Amy - You might of seen a bit of what happened on a vlog of a night out in May 14, but she was a goddess with cute curves and she blocked me for that. Although she liked me as a person ??, she wasn't ok with being told she actually looked good as she was. 

But heres to 5 years and hope the next 5 i'm still around and still making like the same but maybe better than ever, there is a lot to go and i've got a fair few things to plan. The new year resolutions have still had no progress, even if i did offer Jess a all paid for date night (that was in the envelope if people didn't know, i haven't mentioned that to anyone until now), but i've got hopes that might come to face. Also i fistpumped on friday when i found out my best friend is single, which i know won't go anywhere but i've actually rehearsed what i could say to her which might work but might not but all i can do is plan and hope and make sure i'm ready.

That and i'm hopefully free for another long night out and i might finally get my first kiss, it might cost me £50 or more but to be honest, if i don't get it done, i'm always going to wish and hope and wait and it will never happen, people say that it will and i should just wait (a beautiful girl named Tash said that in a heart to heart) but i'm knowing that waiting for something that might never happen is a lonely ride and the longer you wait, the harder something can be to get and do. Even if i do "get all the pussy" from what people say, recently swaggy and some friends of his have said that but being 21 and not having kissed a girl is quite frankly, embarrassing and its starting to feel like a "just get it over with at least you know your not as far behind as the rest of life" than a special moment. But i know that this year is the end of the single guy lifestyle and the beginning of the settling down and its hard that i wake up still knowing i've not had a first kiss, first cuddle, first relationship at a time where people are getting knocked up within 4 months.

So, i leave you with that there thoughts of the above, times ARE changing but will i be able to catch up before 2015, will i be settled down by the time its my 10th anniversay on Twitter when i'm 26 and maybe not a virgin, maybe i make a shit mistake and knock someone else up, maybe i get my first kiss, first proper belly massage to give, maybe the first time that someone might blush as i say "i love you" to their face then kiss.

But for now, who knows, i might end up dead somewhere, but i have yet to see my fate

omracer

"Yer havin a carnival" (The Tavistock Carnival 2014)

So, its also that time of year when the Carnival of tavistock fastly approaches, with the weahter being mixed towards the end, the week of 6 days and working with Year 10s which has quite frankly been a good godsend and made life much more productive with 4 people at some stage this week. But i'll get into that in a minute. But its been a nice 6 days working, video editing and getting my pc reset with mavericks, aka a reinstall. It took a few hours to back up but i got mostly everything up and running.


But as i mentioned, the past 5 days i've been mentoring 2 year 10s. Which all in all has been a good time, i've shown them the ropes, they have saved me alot of time, some hassle avoided too and well worth doing a full week at work for these guys. From ordering laptops to even cleaning shelfs with some lemon cleaner and tissues. That and i finally bought a new keyboard and mouse, i'll review that next week but it looks really good from what customer's have talked about it. That and something else as well which might be more geeky but you'll find out soon.

But back to the Saturday...

After fapping over charley, yup. But seriously, she looks amazing recently, and even when i saw her just coming back in her flat a week ago, she was but also i hope i might see her more this summer, but i'll play it by ear.

So, i woke up about 9ish, then i just talked to my cat, i even just rested on the floor, looked up and said to myself about its been 5 years nearly since i've been on twitter and i said about a plan to finally get my first kiss on a night out soon. But my day had to start and i got changed then got my river island blue shirt i orginally bought in 2010 and then some jeans and ran down to work, it was a nice run and then i got in, greeted the boss and its a calm day.

The highlights of the day include:

• Typing up this and another blogpost soon
• Selling a laptop for £60
• Mopping the floor up
• Delivering a PC to a customer's car then i discover a nice drink of costa someone just chucked away, so picked that up and bought it back in then enjoyed that with 2 biscuits i got given by one of the year 10s during the friday. 

The drink i found and the biscuits that were at the back

Then it was time to pack up and head out, i did snap some bits of the farground in the square before i left for home and to top up £100 on my card, i've not done it for over a week, but i should be able to save back up real soon. maybe back to be able to buy Google Glass, which vlogs will be immense if that happens, but i'm going to get there soon enough :)

The view of the Twister and a Donut booth

The view of the Fun House and a bouncy castle

Looking towards the square

The Twister again

Then i got home, greeet by my parents as usual then it was time to prepare for it...or so i thought, i walked in and my mum greeted me, my dad dropped my sister off to a friends house, then i got to move the cat's cage but it turns out she did a shit and she put the litter grains on the sofa :(, anyways i asked how she was then got a mild shower going, got into my trackies then got those usual e-mails checked and then it was nearing 18:10 and i was starting to head down for the evening. My dad got back and then asked how i was then checked his e-mails. 

Then it was time to run down and get the event started. The procession was slightly late but it was quite a good one, maybe... Enjoy the vlog below:




Then after that, i decided to get chinese on the way back, which was slightly pricier, but someone i know on facebook served me, which does add a nice touch. In the end it cost me £17.10 for the whole lot, which is in a bag below:

The bag with it all in and some prawn crackers since you get them free if you spend £15 or more :)

After that, it was a blitz back up to my house then time to get the vlog edited while indulging on this amazing amount.

The food i bought. 2 x seaweed, 1 x Chicken Balls, 1x portion of chips, 1x BBQ sauce, 1x Beef in black bean and thats about it for £17.10

Eating it was nice and it was a not too bad procession, sure it was a fair amount of minion based, since thats really the in thing with comedy but its still good to see something happen every so often.

But the next good event in Tavi might be in september, so i'll see what i can do

omracer

omracer's Night Out: Another wet July outing

So, this is another wet night out. Almost a year since my last one. But I've not had a night out since the BBQ which is pretty not too long unless you are a proper booze lover.

So, I only found out I was going out tonight after swaggy tweeted me saying nath wants me at a birthday gathering which is neat, although i wasn't intentionally going out this weekend night, it felt a nice change. And maybe other ideals and dreams might happen.

I only finish work at 4:50. Holy fuck it was a hetic day, I mean,  5 jobs came in, I thrashed (finish/sorted) 3 of them, plus I was starting to edit another old vlog and render 2 for another video and that was all by myself after 10am, which I say is good going for me. But after that, I sprinted for home, got in and the vlog for tonight begins.

I decided to get a shower, well I was soaked in sweat and it was mini type rain, well actually really a misty, wet atmosphere, which doesn't make it appealing for going out. The shower was just right, not boiling but not the article ice cold either. Then it was a nice cat greeting. Which she's recovered nicely after her hormonal operation. Also known as she got neutered. Then the dog, well he growled a bit.

I also sorted my brows out, which have been deciding to go back to the mono monster that I've had to Stare at when watch my old vlogs back, ewwww. (Do that in a girl accent, yup). Then it was time to change, into the usual night out clothes people know, maybe hardly love but its like a shit trademark. I sprinted for the bus at about 5:45.

I got down to there about 5:55, that's almost faster than going to work, but theme again there are no uphill sprints. The wetness was great, well not really but it wasn't a nice look anyway, lidl looked busy. For a curious guy, i also checked my phone balance, £1.30 the meh accent of the automated orange rep said, so i know i needed to top up and get dolphin for £10. Then after doing a tall style selfie to check the GPS, which did give me a fix after a minute, I got on the bus, I almost paid £6.20 but then went for the day plus. So under a £5 by £0.50.

Waiting at the bus stop on another wet evening

The journey was quiet, a fair bit of mist on the moors but hopefully I don't have to run home tonight, but even though it's a good thing to do once in a while, i don't think tonight is that night. I got off at Morrison's, since it would be easier than running through town again, that and I needed to top up my phone.

It was a nice run of about 12 minutes. Then it was a browse into a famous premier shop, aka the on I bought a decent bit of cakes, topped up £10 and ran to the house, I got there, heck I was waiting for like 10 minutes before I got in. Nath let me in, then it was pretty much us chilling in his room, with fifa on ps4, then if was more chatting, chillaxing, then even Eloise passed out for an hour, nath had no sleep for 4 days.

Later on, nath's sister arrived and gave him a decent bit of Japanese food. Which looked so lush and then more mates arrived. Chatting, listening to dub step and smelling smoke. But I might realise that I'll be out earlier than maybe the others. I was also calling to see if the extras went through and when they did, I fist pumped off the chair and it was amazing how even happy that made me.

Then it was this funny conversation on how this orange worker makes so much fun happen, with even callers asking to meet him, much awkward and partly hot. That and I've also heard a bit of how I get more pussy then everyone else there, even though one was 24, married with one kid and a project manager, but it makes me realise, I'm still having a long battle to catch up to.

At about 9:30, I wandered out to mutley, on the off chance I text Charley to see if she was in, she wasn't but Lauren was in there and I let her know. But then I got reidy opening the door, I had that feeling I might of done it this time, maybe I started to get that rage, but I kept it calm. He said "its nice to finally meet you", which maybe I'm being to nasty at this point, but I smiled wrly. Then Jordan got me over with Lauren, she was looking nice, I mean beautiful crop top and jeans and that smile which is that good stuff and we chatted, I mentioned the work experience year 10s I'm dealing with next week and one I'm guiding and friends with for a year or so. That and she asked about twitch, which i cant explain but she understood. Also the friend I'm guiding a tiny bit did pm me with laptop issues which I felt lacked out to bother, its not him, its just I just have a long day of tech support and feeling awkward in a room full of random guys watching football, I couldn't think straight. But I perved on her fridge, looked ok, far from a foodee fridge but I had the vibe he's moved in with her *sigh*

Later on, I hanged out with Jordan and Lauren as they smoked outside, it felt mild out, but as you know it, the best friend arrives out of a black car with a bbw driver, she looked like a real waifu, maybe better than ever, but we didn't hug, which I shouldn't really complain. She asked how I was then went in co op after calling r. After that, it was back up to the flat

But then us 4 (me, chazza, Jordan and Lauren) went in her room, we just laid on her bed and chatted, mostly the gossip stuff, while she had a shower, which stuff included fb pics, the realisation my first sleepover was at this very flat,  she felt privileged, which made a little snug heartbeat. Then it ended up me being mean when they all realised how nasty I am when I unfriend girls that get knocked up, the what if questions come around, oh I landed myself in paranoia. 

Catching up and on charleys bed, this was before the shower but i'm not sure...

Charley then was in a towel doing her hair, I think I saw her dildo but I'm not sure ;). She said best friends don't perve which maybe I ah, but I had that back massage giving vision again, but I mentioned someone I know does reki. Then I said about my 5 year YT anniversary, I said I wasn't doing much.

But by 10:35, I decided to leave, we all said bye, even reidy did, but I walked out then got some more RR tunes up and ran for the place, the earphones took the sprint, I made it before paying time.

It was generally quiet for this time, but I danced with a few girls, smiled at some, shaked some guys hand, had a girl ask me for Pete's number and also said to me about her two brothers and they watch my gaming videos, which is a surprise, since I know I've had people want less of them from me, heck even swaggy wanted me to refilm the sketch of me using a pillow as a girl I wanted to be with which is popular recently.

The music was the same, I don't know but I know I have better music in my collection in digital form, but I danced and that means that. I did go for a piss before it got busier in there, but that was a facial cool down too. It was nice seeing some slightly bbw like girls, one knew me, wasn't a bbw but she was gaining beautifully. Then it was nearing the time of the end of the fun....

By 11:29 I walked out and also my tripped over a bottle, but I didn't, so rushing like the speed of sound to royal parade, the bus arrives and left a minute early almost, which I'd could of been fucked. But then I ended up talking to someone that knows me on the bus for 5 minutes then it was a quiet journey back, well as I got off some guy smiled and shouted "its the computer guy", I had to have a giggle, more on the inside, since maybe I'm more well known in tavi these days for that, actually my boss did make that point a few months back.

I finally run from lidl and get home, its about 12:40 at this point and I've realised I've not had a drink nor food for over 24 hours, so after getting in and being a nudist I get a quick snack and a cold drink. Then it's just a nice sleep.

The Drink and snack (Blue Riband in brown sauce and ground ginger) when i got home. 

Another night out done but it's more a quick catch up more than anything, from the house and enjoying that to the chance to hear tension between people from someone I could and would cut my heart out and give to her if she wanted it, but I missed that while I fell for the perfect girl miles away.

That's all for this, a lot more content this weekend.

Omracer

The rushed quest for the fluffy socks, cycle style

This titles is a strange one but this is a day for another birthday present for someone that even though hasn't done much, she means a bit in my life and this could be a moment to prove myself. Long story short, its another cycle trip to town for buying presents.

The weather was good and the time was around 8:30, i woke up missing emma, ok that is just daily life but i miss her even though its not vice versa which hurts. But after that, i sprung out of bed about 2 minutes before 8:40 and started to get the laptop on with a special voucher to make on Word. I won't link it since that will spoil the suprise i have in store, but its a OTT plan that has no chance of working but its the best effort i can think of. But this is better than most of the people that don't even deserve the girls they are with could come up with, thats boastful to say but i really feel this is the 2nd best effort i've ever done with trying to impress somone, the 1st best was the £250 cash, thats the least i can go by.

After making and printing the poster which i'm actually smiling over just seeing, it was time to get changed. The weather is lush and also another of those heatwaves, which is perfect timing, since i did actually do some leaflet deliveries in meh weather on Tuesday and a nice evening on the Monday.

The leaflet delivery on the monday night
The leaflet delivery on the Tuesday


Then i should also mention that i sold some jeans on eBay on Monday, i signed them as well, someone lucky in mutley has won them, sure they only paid £1.61 + £2.50 P&P but thats better than nothing for jeans.



Now, back to the story of the current day, which is meh. Anyways, i got changed and headed out, getting MyTracks to work again, with the GPS getting really good recently, it even worked outside on a cloudy day, after about 2 minutes of holding the phone up in the air like a over head selfie. The journey was not too bad, especially when it was topless and it felt like free aircon and was keeping me mighty fine. I did take the old route for a change, which was nice even though i wanted to speed up, taking 1 hr 50 minutes



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I got in and browsed in primark for jeans. luckily i found 2 pairs of 34W, 30L Jeans, at £5 each. The queue was quite small and i got them paid for and walked out, i did see someone who i don't get on with and that was just a meh thing, i used to find her hot then she lost all of the curves she had and went Paris. Thats all i know.

The jeans that fit me ok but can be slim on the legs, but thats hence the name slim. 

After that, it was more of a waiting game for Swaggy and Pete to meet up, but as i was walking around in HMV and noticed the Ubi merchandise (aka the assasins creed and watch dogs toys, which btw, Watch Dogs is getting REALLY good, i'm near the 4th act and all the side missions completed as well as collected items, i've got the AR games to finish). I noticed a text of a tweet "3 hours left until i finish for 4 days", suddenly life became like a game and there was a time above the players head, so i had to buy the gifts i've wanted to get pretty fast. Since it was half 12 i found out that and i had to speed up and get it to Jess before 3:30, which i'll get into what happened later. But the shopping trip was a fun one.

After i met up with James as he just come out of starbucks and i told him about it. So we started making our way to the market, which our first stop was. For fluffy socks. Now this was an idea thanks to asking Charli, (one i've not mentioned on here before, but just say shes a sister to Jess), when i DM'ed her on what to get her. So we browsed the market, looking in some clothes stores, then we looked at games and there was some manga comic, of course its not a hentai, but the less you know of that, the partly better if you like reality. Anyways i found some socks then looked and saw nothing, which was a bit of a shame, but a turkish guy, a really nice chap spoke to the others and said i was in there and i asked him, he looked and found something perfect, it was small fluffy socks, which looked nice and would do nicely. only £4.99 which i think was a bargain, well compared to goose fair but you know. After that, i had a thought from an odd dream (wasn't fantasy based) which involved giving a back massage with incense lit up to give a sensual smell. So i decided to buy a pack of 5 different incenses (2 of each incense) and a holder for them to be lit and all in all, that cost me £3.

Me and pete shopping in the market, i look like a tourist

Then we ventured out and walked to the closest Pizza hut and then the guy just binned James's starbucks then while he popped to the toilet, i ordered a small little £20 giftcard. That wasn't too bad on timing that i just finished when he came back. So then it was off to Poundland for the bags and another USB Cooling stand. well for £1  you can't go wrong even if it lasts 4 months. I forgot that the others held a place in the queue but i remembered and got that paid on my card, with ease and then we had to walk to barclays since Pete had some standing orders to book in. The casual was chatter, (i meant it was casual chatter on the way) from girls to this place pete went to which was nice and really remote, he nearly even convinced his boss to drive through Tavi. But as i got in there i noticed a beautiful girl, with soft arms and a nice summer dress on and it suddenly clicked to me that it was someone i know, Bridie. I did offer her a meal once as a birthday gift, i wonder if i would happen, but not for a few years i think :/. Also there was a good looking blonde girl talking to her and had a nice, no, a really nice bum in a pencil skirt on too, it reminded me of a bbw comic i saw once but i can't pinpoint it, i should of done something, i even got my glasses on to get a better look of them both, that failed when the blu-tack didn't work.

Then we left and went to to a lappy around the mall, which was ok, not much in terms of sales and girls, but as we were walking in, we were offered some Cinnamon pretzels that were freebies. OMG THE TASTY UUUMF. That was tasty and its not too bad for £3 a pretzel, well actually i heard of something similar for £0.80 but i need to check that for a later date. But then we had to drop something into HSBC then Llyods and Pete left us for work. So me and swaggy got back to starbuck and i packaged up the presents.

The range of Gifts. Total cost was about £29. Including the Bags, a pack of 2 x 5 different flavoured incenses, a holder for the incense, the envolope with something special and a Pizza Hut giftcard of 20 (feeder hint), all in the nice bottle bag

All the presents in the bag and another look at the Poundland USB coolers

A better view of the bag and cooler

After that, it was time to cycle out and get the next bit. So i left about 2:15 and headed out to my favourite florists as of late, which i've even been to when i was on the brink of tears. This florist is really good in value and service, even better than me to be honest. So i bought 2 of the same, one was for Charley, well since i miss my twerking best friend and shes been ill and down, it might be convenient. Then the other was of course for jess. It was easy to put it through the letterbox but it was not easy to fit the other one in my bag.

The first flower, £1 

The 2nd flower, £1 again

Now its time to get over to the mcdonalds, i rush it and get there at 2:57. i also notice the drive through was closed. Anyways i park the bike by the scaffolding and then it turns out Jess left work. I went "SHIT" and walked out then decided to cycle to hers, well somewhere where i think she would be. But then halfway biking it, i get a text from Jess saying her manager called about me, and then said she was in Whitleigh, which was the opposite side but not too bad to reach. I get there in about 20 minutes then it was searching, she said somewhere near the bottom, which after asking a few people, i get my way there.

So, its nearing 4pm and i text her and she arrives with her sis. It was nice chatting to her, we talked a bit about emma, she was going to pick her up but she changed that for a date night with :@. Then she said emma had some problem with her laptop which was a suprise to me. Then she said if i found anyone else and i said no. That and she said about how she left early for work. That and her plans for the birthday weekend. Shes going to be US Legal too, which if things went right, she could of been a great partner for the Vegas BBW Bash, but moreso to give her a slight insight to it.. I gave it over then we split our ways and i headed back.

I took a route through Tamerton Foliot for a change, maybe a big mistake. But it was more scenic and the GPS was picking me up easily. The route back through southway, which was very near where i had the BBQ. But the route i did back was quicker than i thought.


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Then it was the final bit of getting home and having a immense cold shower. But although part of me thought today went too far, i was happy with the way things turned out. But there is alot more things from me in the coming weeks.