Wednesday, 31 March 2021

A conclusion to a hetic month - Lockdown Stage 22

 Well, this is the soon to be end of this month, lets be honest, its been terrible and sure there have been some moments of smiles, the negativity has been very much shown and well things have progressed for the better for family and this makes things easier to deal with and also at the same time, work is going to be dealing with some scars from the stupid choices others make and how actually having to face the solution is not something I'm ready for. But it also gives the chance that freedom for many will start and this does give hope. But so does the resuming from when we left off nearly 2 weeks ago. 


So we start off with the stressful part, with over or nearly a week but feels like 2 since the card at work was cancelled, it was getting towards a second reminder for the internet bill and I still didn't feel comfortable having to deal with a fucking call centre, so it was going to be having to make sure that I got it paid, but that and also finally a tastecard was purchased for a project as well. 


The Tastecard 

This is realising actually a good way to be a feeder by using discounts as a enabling side, This is still a wonder of when or if it will have an effect but thats when the places open up in may for eating. But this was RARE to find, but Tavi Tesco had it but other even Saltash and  Plymouth Tesco's did not. But it was sent off along with a letter to do with paying one of the bills in cash. Posting these off cost me nearly £5 but it was also emotion of what I put in with the tastecard from a secret that has still not been told to this day which might finally complete a search for love even.. On the way back was the lush time of being able to get some sweet treats and see my mum on the way back. I had to go to work that day for a delivery anyway as well. This was mums first day back at work since making sure her parents are okay, things were easing up on that end tbh. 


The muffins on the way back from posting off the items 


Then it was time to get home to catch-up on other bits of work, Since it was time to also cook me and dad tea which actually was my first time to cook minced beef fajitas, Which I think I added too much but it did turn out quite nice. And the fajita kit was only £0.85 too when I bought it 2 weeks ago. 

The fajita kit 



The results

It worked out pretty nicely I'll admit, but there was a kick from the medium garlic nandos which was bought from Co-Op back in November 2020 even. Things got a bit better with the chance to finally have another walk with mum on the day after. Since she was starting to come home more in the afternoons to get some time out from what shes been through, and it was nice to revisit places I've been during lockdown and this was no exception. 

The leat 

We talked and she vented out and also it made me realised things like Power of attorney could be only 10 years away before I or my sister will have to start filling it in, since sure they would be 70 by then but its this risk of leaving it too later which can haunt and has been haunting mum a bit even though shes started that process. But Google keep setting it in a reminder for me to be aware of it in 2030 is planning at its longest. 

This was then the time to bake something just off the bat and what could be tasty ended up not too bad. A chicken in mushroom soup pasta sort of bake and I liked it but dad didn't get so keen on it. 

The pasta bake with extras 




Now as Friday approaches,  it was more online work to cain and well, this makes things easy, but Then the call comes of more PS5s to sort out, which means next week was going to be one busy pain and risk. But things have to be done and it was going to be the push to have to organise things and due to regular routines, I had to get my rep to change the shipping to Tuesday but there was a chance of a 2day way, that was not the case later on but still that being careful, but it meant most of that week was fully in the shop. 

The leftover Pasta in a toasted sandwich with Weetabix inside 

But as work progressed another walked happened and later on was the cooking of my favourite rice, Nasi Goering and added some Tikka Masala sauce to it. 

The nasi goring tikka masala with the extras as well

Then it was the weekend, things are more on the visit side to get some warranty bits done, also when a customer emails a week later than written to offer something that week only then get shitty to say x is y. But after offering a visit, no reply was given so meh. But it was then the Saturday and 3 visits to sort out that day, since one wanting a Sim card and dropping it off then to town then to further south for a warranty visit regarding a slot faulty on a MacBook, but sorted luckily. Then back to get some bits in lidl, before realising next week i have a printer to deliver so it was the best time to sort it out. 

Some bits and pieces just got the cash amount for 


But once that was done and stuffed in my hoodie and rucksack, it got me back home, then to walk Rosie again, which then made me think on a plan, which meant another visit and also a chance to pickup that Printer, since it was also the night to myself as well. So I got the sack truck I had to use for earlier that week since of a final visit with one of my other customers and get some carboard organised as well as the printer and walk home with it, not had but it did take time. 

The box with the bits in 

Now I got home and did get calls as to why I'm late and well it can be annoying but it made me then decide to get some tea and a omelette was the best choice for this, especially when watching Pok√©mon on Netflix too. 

The Omelette with Cookies and other bits and it was lush

But then it was the final weekend which 1 year ago was me moving things out from work.. And it was that reminder of how things have changed in one sense but the same in others. Since lockdown was still here but at the same time, it was the case of her immunity coping through. Sure Google was crashing for some and protests were getting quite scary, since the vigil of the young lady that got raped and murdered by a cop had the vigil and even 2 weeks later, it was deemed not out of order to somewhat be very harsh against the public for the enforcement. Its proving to me the law is not to be trusted here at all, Solidarity to the events of that and what were going to follow as well. 

I'm not going to lie and say I've never been part of the 97% since actions in my past have been even important moments of my love life some will say are part of the 97%, All I can do is learn and reflect on it which I sort of have... But that night I ended up watching marvel films really, If i recall anyway. 


But as we get to Sunday, it was still the moment of choice to see family, which was soon going to be the final sleepover there for mum, but I got up slightly late after a long night and then just as I was feeding pets, Dad came in and had to help with lifting something to the garage (I had to help him lift the same thing out the day before). Which then we went off to see mum and grandparents again which was nice and There is this exhaustion I could tell in the family, but at the same time, Grandad's back was improving much better. 

There was a change for another roast which was nice and more catch-up and actually the chance to setup a phone system for £70 but sadly they didn't make much use of it. But it worked and called mum, since Both were struggling to call via Google which sadly is harder to use than Amazon's offering at this point. 

But then it was time me and Dad went home and before we did, We popped by to see his mum's grave and it was more reflection and a slight bit less negativity to go with as well. But then we got home and he did some chores while I walked Rosie, which actually that day was an attempted to film a catch-up vlog,  but it was not the right time even as negative as it sounded and was (reflecting from what was said in the last blogpost) But soon it was time to do that bit.


Now this week was going to be hectic and exhausting. Since a plan to pickup a cabinet via sack truck is going to be a big thing to deal with, Plug the Monday was the normal ride for a visit, but this time I went straight home after since I would be in the shop the rest of the week. But it was that Tuesday, DPD said it would arrive and it did, which then 6 of the blighters to stack and book in. 

More arrival



A smoothie for lunch

Then it was soon time to get the sacktruck and walk to collect the Cabinet, which actually was the same as the other ones I've got in the shop too. After visiting, we both got it strapped and taped in, which then one chatting to get some Gridwall in the next 2 weeks is a chance too, But Eventually, another 20 minutes and I got it in there, and then to unpack and move it around, which looked like it was going to work nicely. 

The new cabinet is facing us



How to use Boxes as shelves


But then it was to be the day after, which could have been all a sold day but instead was things to organise and one emergency PC build to sort out Which I pretty much did not get home until 8pm and also had to change the motherboard out of the PC I made for the PC build tutorial to move it to work, which is fine and looks nicer but the windows activation is the pain. 

The Smoothie

Then it was wait and see for all 6 consoles to sell. They did and all paid easily, until the last one when another person bought it for their behalf of the one that booked it. But once those had sold, it was time to come home and then start to work online for the rest of the week and boy it would be exhausting. This was also the time to get the vlog edited of a year of lockdown, a reflection, it took longer than I liked but I got it. 











But the Friday was the time of busy times with the online work but that also means I get to have toasted sandwiches for lunch again as well. Rave was busy, there is that time to spend on it which can make it feel like a lifetime away. This was going to mean a long night ahead.

A smoothie to start of the day



Toasted sandwiches 

As work was sort of progressing, it was also rare that mum decided we should have a takeout and later on we did, the local ganges was the place, but the collection was longer than we think, even with ordering online via their own site. But it eventually turned up. 

The indian takeout

Then it was the working online with one live chat lasting until 3am and also a plan to make sure someone was ok but the tiredness was really kicking in. But in the end I woke up late and had to carry on with the chats. But for that night, it was some really spicy fried chicken which made things well, spicy, which follow through is ouch. Also my dad was whining about one of his friends of friends cheating on someone else and unsure why since she has kids and money which there is more 

The spicy chicken with sweet potatoes. 




But then it was the final weekend before the time will pass forward and that was going to be where my energy would be low, people get confused and well this happened with family, since most of them forgot the clocks changed, I got a text from one customer on how to change their device. First it started out with a dull walk on the moors with a air uncertainty. 

The air and the cloudy view from the moors 

As we walked on, things were heard, horses walked past and more of the time to visit grandparents which actually we had roast lamb this time, it was so soft on the mouth too. But at the  time it was seeming to be some improvements with the first week of them two by themselves, even I helped nan get to the dining room which is the first time this year she went there. 

The Roast Lamb with the extras 

Then it was more time to catch up and talk and we also had to move the things over,  I mean the recliner had to be moved over back to his room. He was back in the chair and happy, but it defeated the point, we chatted and caught up but soon it was time to go home. Also Lidl Plus in Tavi is now a test store so things might work out for that future too. 

The store is now a test area



Now then we went home and more reflection which felt positive regarding this and it was to also rush in the field to leave since a tractor we thought was on its way. Then it was going to be the chance to finally continue the last few days of the month, things seemed to be positive and a plan was being to spring to mind. Since Well still no card for the work and also the chance to sort out the money from that side is springing to mind. Sure a bath means checking remote desktop was okay but scrolling is a problem for sure. 



Now the Monday had to have some emergency visits to sort out and a controller exchanged of a dualsense which has weird distortion regarding the voice, but gripping on it felt really good and it is easier to use. But after that, the weather was good and that meant travelling was on the way to be planned. So shopping on the way back is to find out and actually some good bargains were to be had here. Like £5.37 for a handful which is nice. 

The handful of bargains from Tesco

This was then time to catch-up for this and actually get some extra bits sorted out too. But a sunset walk with mum with the later on the sky blue at nearly 8pm is so rare but so much nice memories of summer coming up,. 

The sunset across the view of the town


Mum was feeling more herself and  I was feeling more positive in myself. This was needed to really boost my goals, ok yes my productivity was low since after this was trying to find on of the towns on a map in Train Simulator, but then it was a bath and it was more relaxing needed. But then it more things. 

The next day was more to catch-up on this post and also to get one more visit or 2 done which worked out, sure I had phone calls and had to BACS over more money. But then I got home and to catch-up on things before finally trying to Cain this post up, there is some determination in my mind, someone got something special and also it was the final time of the Slush mix purchased. That was a nice one for some hot weather since august too really. Plus a nice toasted sandwich to enjoy as well. 

The Ham, coco pop strawberry white cholate and sweet chilli toasted sandwich 







The final drink with the calippo slush strawberry 


Then it was more waiting and eventually time to get the walk with mum done again, this time we decided to go to the river since Rosie needs a cool down Which she loved that even if I got red mud on my jeans for walking her, even with them being the ones with the holes inside. But then it was finally to just time for one more meal later on and then to finished this  off. 

Plans are being set in motion for the new few weeks and next wee will be back to the shop and then back to working like normal and face the consequences of  having to refuse help or clients as well. 


The Resolutions - Catch-up

Lets be honest, lockdowns can reduce some goals and really i cant really say if I've improved or fulfilled any just yet but lets re-cap. 

 
  • stream more - Still have to do this and I do have capture cards now  
  • Catch up with the  accounts in work -  Well no since lockdown has been busy for me mostly 
  • Be able to hug someone non work or family related - Looking towards after June if the plan is to be the same 
  • Complete at least 2 games in a story mode  - This might start from May  
  • Do more Day out vlogs  - Hopeful to be starting one next week 
  • Schedule/plan out days more -  Slightly getting better but not writing it done enough 



But here we are, 3 months and and it feels like not much has been shown for it, but then again Lockdown partly ended from 29gth March aka the stay at  home order did and work for me resumes from the 12th April so it will be some truths to handle and stress to come back to but less on the legal side just yet ,. The lockdown stages will end by June and by then its normal blogposts which probably will be a slowdown in that too. 

Stay safe and we can see how things go for now. 

omracer 

































Monday, 15 March 2021

Stress and Complicated truths - Lockdown stage 21

 Well, march has had a nasty start to it and well, it causes those moments where things are going to feel like a crash will happen, things collide. But there was time to also reflect on the current realisations of the world and even how we can change and adapt in more ways. But for now it has to be to catchup with those days.


March: 

Well after the previous blogpost, it was time to go back to work, since Customers were back on the swing with the customers, the best thing is that the weather was getting better, but it was also the up and coming risk that soon, consoles were going to be abound, especially as the chance for being able to start getting videos up since both my parents were staying at my nans. Since as of this, grandad sadly hurt is back and was unable to move for almost 2 weeks (only this past week when typing, this, has he started to slowly walk). 


But it makes the sense of using this for the best time to really start being productive, but sadly even that can be tricky at times, especially wit the massive stress of having to help a friend out for £10 and that fucked up a payment for the glasses which is maybe why the direct debit failed idk. Especially that day i did not get home until 9:40 pm and even with having to move desks in and extra visits. 

Gfuel I needed to start the day off, especially as it was 11 hours



A desk I got for free 



A Late night snack of chicken noodle soup. 

But then it was nice to get the extra parts done. Which was to get some plans out of the way with having to work and do some chores online, Rosie was getting demanding for walks tooo. Since dad was off and on, it was hard to know what to plan. The weather was just amazing and even with the strong wid

The field in the lush haze


It was also good to try to make lefover food, like sweet and sour chicken with spring rolls in the oven for a change which worked out really nicely. The Pasty was a massive one my sister gave my mum and it was nice too. 


The mix of pasty, spring rolls and sweet and sour

Then it was to have a late night meal while getting more things sorted, with my motivation was lowering and maybe it was the hindsight of what's to come or the fact that working is getting exhausting, not even online, but that was the good thing with using the sandwich maker./ 



The bacon sandwich, 

Now that was out of the way, it was time to also start a new project which was to use Opencore on the PC I built for the tutorial, which actually I managed to get it done but it was quite mind tanking as well as the fact my dad was here until a last minute call which means it had rushed timed to myself. Luckily i didn't have to be in the shop until the end of the week, due to consoles arriving then. 

This was also the time the new hard drive board arrived, sadly that did not show all of the files so a bios solder swap will be the plan eventually. But for now it was just to get that bit right and well online job had to stop since the real life was the plan here. The night was quite good.


The night in blurred



Rosie and Finley 



The special pancake



The hard drive board changed

But as this progressed it was soon time to get back to work, Time to reflect and also a goal on my mind but hopefully soon that was to be amended and start to show the skills to get back to living a goal. But it was also the time to learn the light broke and without power for actually 1 hour and 30 minutes or so. But eventually 8:30pm and it was back up, Dad just slept but for me it was more playing Railway Empire using that UK map, but getting the controls is not as easy as I thought. 

The light and power cuts out. 

But then it was that choice of waiting in a peace and then to wait for the weekend since the PS5s were to be sold and also 2 laptops are on the way as well, work was busy in that way and it was getting to be the first time to get a few bits and minus a few more visit, it was time to look obese to stash all of the shopping in my jumper and rucksack while on the bike, to make the most of a bit extra money for shopping.

The shopping in lidl

Then I got back, as i was running home, i got a text from the bank work uses and mentioned a £300 charge in Sainsburys, So naturally I replied N and heard nothing until later on. I was having more ranting and talking to myself which I've realised that has happened to me a fair bit lately too. The sunsets are soo good. 



 
The golden sun



The glow above the town



A Darker sunset

Then as i was cooking tea, I got a call from that bank regarding the text earlier, So it means that i was having to sort that bit out, Which the call hung up and no word from them since, which means that work is more complicated from the reduction, and it means the end of easy way to pays bills. But it was a biit of mess the frying of the chicken and mushroom pasta. 

The chicken and the mushroom

Then it was time to start to plan for getting videos up, time to myself was coming over which made it easier to finally get time to, sure some of the deliveries arrived like the Glasses and the Ring light, which was finally the time to get them reviewed. 









First up was the glasses: Now this was great to film but sadly the money spent on them was quite a disaster and me and the seller did argue after me following her advice as well. But they do pack some better quality than other types and well even with the double charging, the value is reasonable for older tech anyway. 






The box 



The glasses on with the  UV lenses 


With the normal lenses 



Portrait Selfies when dogwalking 



A wider selfie 

The quality of the camera 

Now that day i had to go to work due to waiting for someone to pickup a PS5 which actually they didn't even bother to turn up, so another customer went to go for it in the end, so that was for the next week, But it was a good way to be able to take footage with it and see how it goes for a sort of a day in the life. 



The river on the way to work

Which luckily it did help me get the chance to be able to type the review post up quite quickly, but as for video editing, it did take 2 days longer than I wanted it to be, but things soon were to creep up on me. Sometimes the best way to  cope is to just play PS1 light gun games on the toilet using an emulator on my phone such as ePSXe.  Which i was to find out that a lot of my time was wasted due to thoughts causing stress in my mind. But its soo good to enjoy those type of games on the phone due to the the touch screen. 

But the video editing for the glasses was exhausting, but it was also the time of the #harrymeganinterview and oh my god that was a lot of dish served and that tea was up until 3am. But it just shows how much of a system is fucked, I mean it really does and this was going to be a week of realising other sections of the society we live in is going to be affected much more. Plus it was also again the second time this year I had a bit of non milk inside coffee to keep me getting it done, it did not help since feelings via music and the interview twitter commentary. 










But non the less, work had to get involved and it was to finally sell the last PS5 and also order some bits from suppliers and its causing issue to even pay due that card, which just adds more stress. Especially as having to deliver a device then return later on to get another device to then deliver which was for end of this week, well supposed to be. 

But as there was signs of progress for my family with a somewhat normal return, it was sometimes learning about things and new realisations which could mean a lot of downward spiral and that was causing a hold up, this time of year can be a odd one normally but this year it hit hard and questions my own maybe sanity, its also where I've started to bring things up to myself about it and even make mistakes such as get a quote from a life insurance ad that tom.co.uk was spamming on my Facebook feed (which is supposed to be for dads)   and then it was that daunting conversation of spending £25 p/m (up to) for both life insurance and a critical illness cover that was only to last until I'm 70, even as a almost 30 year old straight edge incel, like actually the chap was fair but I could tell he was slightly wanting to sign me up but I explained about my lack of tolerance for insurance companies. But we ended the call eventually. 







Yes for some that is very good value but for me, the do i spend £7,000+ over 30 years on a basis to maybe get up to £30,000 if i get a critical illness, the MAYBE is the key.
 

(which is another reason that I do not feel ready to drive and I've had that stressful argument with myself and pressure about it last summer) and sometimes those anxious moments make bad choices and decisions. Like when i ended up applying for NHS therapy but did not proceed further when a reply required me to have a phone call about it, and I never used better help since the £150 i didn't feel right to spend  . 





As this was going on it turns out both parents have had the AZ vaccine, my dad did have a num arm and no sider effects, but my mum was wiped out and felt crap on the day after and yes, it can be common for this to happen BUT with the luck I get it means it will cause damage to the business but the only thing I felt safer is to have the PFizer vaccine when its available but there is a chance there is a just get given one which could cause that day or even WEEK if it happens, which since there is no responsibility for any side effect if it occurs, it basically fucks things up and either publicly announce the business will close due to vaccine side effect for x days (which is pretty much the easy way out but could cause backlash and lose reputation, maybe more than refusing customers that could pretty much cause the business to be breaching rules like the FALSE report of the place being open back in Nov 2020) or wait until the vaccine that I have been told that has caused no side effects is in stock locally or in the mass vaccination which should then make it easier to continue as normal. Also Bonus points that i could have the AZ vaccine after cycling to the place then lose control of the bike and crash/faint and then be in hospital so then causes more damage than its worth, Yes I could take a bus but remember that time I nearly collapsed/fainted when on a bus due to an energy drink, that could happen with any vaccine too...










But this was when that realisation hit me of so many things, such as that burning feeling up to 10 minutes after peeing to even the fact that pants get damp day in, day out, even if I'm not leaving the house, okay maybe its me being lazier that causes it, despite some of those days being days I'm cycling and doing visits for up to 12 hours, sometimes its the feelings I'm getting to try to work harder to make more money on a personal level but the real life work for the business butts in. Maybe this is to do with the Phimosis and well the fact I've still not sorted things out down there due to the lack of needing to, but will I ever just go and ask the right questions, sure the GP just said its better to leave it like it is than to get a circumcision but also Gracie said I really need to pester to try to get the NHS to sort it. 


Now then, With the soon to be anxiety, it was making me feel a bit edged out and that was causing distractions like oooh a new retro TMNT game, okay yes it did help with just me by myself to talk about these feelings and try to motivate myself and well it was time to, but this was shortly after the time that only 2 weeks ago, a carport was built and fitted via a local firm and well this was going to be a tricky time, plus Rosie wanted food and that meant she was getting snacks and might have eaten too many gravy bones to save her from needing to eat dentastix more than the 2 she's had already. The Cats food she was eating as well. 

I managed to have both of them quiet and sleeping sort of for when it was time to get the Ring light review started. This was not bad to film but well it has it moments with Rosie trying to distract me, Now this was delayed in editing as well, but the ring light performed better than I was expecting in most cases. 









The ring lights 



It is quite tall in the end 



Warm light selfies



Normal light selfies 



That cool light. 


That night the wind was chaotic and typing the blogpost up didn't go as nice as I wanted it too,  sadly the dog was being needy and wanting toilet and walkies and eating glass, but the carport pvc was actually banging the sides and the poles were loose which in the morning, it caused frustration and also made me feel no point to bother to go to the shop. So I didn't and aimed to get the blogpost finished as well as the start of the video editing in-between chores. 







But this was also bad news that one of my friends from work had passed away, she was a lovely customer that said and felt like I was a son to her and even when lockdown started last year, I still made effect to make sure sure was ok but her illness sadly caused more pain overtime and even back in November,  I went to bring flowers to her care home. She knew some truths I've not shared for a long time, maybe even ever, there was a level of trust and the last time I saw her was when I was dealing with the risk of having to move away which means further running to and from work which could end up being dangerous but also exhausting, so far that never happened. But it was the last thing me and her talked about, she did call me on the mobile a few times by accident, But the lockdown 2 and 3 means we still cant and well, its now too late. This was also time to go to work and have jeans off while video editing and turn the blanket as well as making bagel sandwiches too.

The hoodie used as a leg blanket 




The bagel, crisps and the cold baked beans from a few weeks ago not used .






So that was on my mind and well it was another time to keep working, but The UK was going to be shocked from what was really going to appear, With Sarah sadly murdered and kidnapped from a police officer. Listening and mourning was going to be important to learn from this, especially from people close to you and also my actions in the past have been of the 97% which all I can say is i've got a lot to learn and in a way, changed attitudes in small stages. 

Now this is on the top of the fact that I then managed to get another video filmed, which was the nice tutorial of the cooking of crispy seaweed which was lush too. Since the editing for this was a bit shorter and did not cut out due to the laptop running out of storage for me which is a pain in the ass for the most part. Rosie was distracted while the carport was being fixed too after I left work early but missed a UPS delivery because of that . 



Rosie n a derp state 









The crispy seaweed with the extras 







Once this was done. it was time to get the chores done with Dad  on Saturday , and that meant a late shopping for mothers day as well as maybe cooking something for lunch that day as well. This was the also time to get ah I needed and also small extras for me and Rosie too. Plus it was so nice to have a ham, mayo and onion toasted sandwich as well. But t was starting to show and crask with how the talking to myself was becoming more louder and more stressful too. 



The shopping in Tesco including the mother days presents 



More shopping in Lidl 

Then it was later on and I had a message to have me travel for a visit on that day , so it was time to get that done then it was a 3 hour visit which was a PC build and the windows to sort out from that board change. Eventually I was finally home after that and with call from family being worried due to this emergency of work. 



Thw toasted sandwches for that lunch 





Cycling in the dusk and dark sunset 



Then it was finally mothers day which was the case to finally have a bit of family time to also learn another side of family too, which as how stubborn my nan can be, but first after getting up and the chores done, My sister picked me up about 11:30 and we chatted and caught up on some topics . This was while having to pickup a special afternoon tea kit from a bakery near my work for £28.00. Eventually we got to nans and unloaded and were chatting. Then to was time to have mixes of mini buffet like food.



Then goody bag to take with us, 



The first plate of the Sunday afternoon tea . 





After this it was chatting and having to do some chores like WIFI setup for google home and also the m1 key setup for the landline which worked fine, but eventually by 4pm it was time me and dad went home and this was where the conversation was getting quote negative such as how both might have to go to a home f he does not improve in that regard even though he is trying is his hardest to get going and she needs to be things vent when she's being laid back but also in her own world. 

But then it was finally time to get some more work admin done due to the issues with the card then the final chance to finish this for the rest of the night and workout the stress of how direct debit is a nasty system and makes it uncertain on money and needs to be changed and the and in place to make these changes in work soon and even for  some home bills on my end . 

But that was it and well its time to continue things and hopefully work for a bonus on the online work, see you soon 

omracer