Thursday, 20 May 2021

Life feels semi-normal - Lockdown Stage 25

 Well, over 3 weeks passed since it was the end of April and now halfway through may, But this is how things go. But its been fully working to a lot of ends which can make even me feel the toll of burnout again. 

So lets begin from that point on when its the 1st weekend in May: 

Well, it starts with Saturday, Which is working and also the time of realising it was the pure second bank holiday of the year. Which this it also to be working on that bank Holiday back to normal cycling on the very many routines but actually it was soon to be more exhausting than I thought. Plus the roads were going to get chaotic with the roadworks of Gas Works now being dug up until the end of the June. This was causing chaos over traffic lights  being out of action. I'm lucky this did not cause a crash. Also I did not hear anything from a site people wanted me to use for selling shoutouts, even though alot of Right wingers used it 

The Roadworks

But after this, it was looking towards another Sunday and first it was to be the Sunday of potential rest . But instead it, was a trip, to a Garden centre I've not been since, May 2019, well to this one anyway, It felt nice but there is that chance of what the future could hold, even if the future did not look as bright as what I was hoping it to be, with more reasons on that to unfold in the weeks after. 

The trolley and plants at plants galore. 

It was a nice way to get back to normal life with afternoons out, sure it caused delays with what I plan out for yourselves, but the family time gave me inspiration, But from the first my dad wanted me to use Google maps to find out how to get there, we did get lost and stuck in one corner but then we got there and looked for various plants and more of the fruit ones to herbs to even making own versions of hanging baskets. But eventually we got out around the 3:30 and then it was a drive to KFC, which for a late lunch and well this was my first time this year and even the first time eating in the car for over a year too. I did manage to clam some of stamp using the kfc app but I really should have looked on the apps for the savings, that is one feeder mistake I'll learn not to do if i get to get food in real life in the future that's not just for me. 

The KFC was amazing to see and it looked so nice too, proper modern and feels nice to walk into a fast food place, but hoping to go on a date there this year when things are ready to happen but probably when I go on holiday next. 

The KFC under the clouds 

As we were eating, we could tell the clouds were getting darker and rain was close to happening but it was soon to pour down on our way home.  

The grey clouds over the east side of Plymouth 

But then we passed Cadover Bridge which actually I've not been there for a good few years now, but, we just had ice cream/ice lolly in the car. Which it was nice and maybe I'll go here again eventually. 

The Strawberry push up 

Then we got home and relaxed and taken it easy, I had to prepare for a long day tomorrow on that end and it was going to be a no exception. But that Monday was alot of cycling, with going from one place to another and then another, it ended up 3 people and even then it was a long time and did not get back until 8pm but it meant an overdue roast with the addition of BBQ pringles. 

The roast with the choco nussa and the spicy bbq Pringles

But then it turns over to more of daily work, the shop was actually not as busy until later on, but that week was actually going to be one with Resident Evil Village, and there was a planned midnight release but since it was looking like a last minute thing, so in the end, it felt like no point trying to get that bit open and do that. But it was also time to have to the call the bank at work, since the new card was blocked due to the bar for the past 2 months. But that was a sign of relief to finally get that sorted and get back to having money sorted out. And even after that was a visit so it took me to get a nice reward of a big meal to add chicken mushroom pasta with it. Plus about smart mirrors, one day I might try to build one. 

The Pasta and extras for that night's tea

It was then to catch up and prepare for more deliveries and also customer visits was abound. And it was soon to finally be the first time of having lunch in Work since re-opening and well it happens due to the posting on amazon to clear games out, Which was starting to really help bulk some cashflow into the business as per say. Luck on my end might run out later, but its the spur of the moment for now. 

The Pasta and the Water

Now lets be fair, the Co-op water is not that bad to be honest and its healthier than other choices I've made before, but When I got to end in the evening, it was finally time to have some extras such as Burger sauce which was on offer from the same time I got the Co-op, with pasties, Plus the salad is always what I had before.  

The Tea from Thursday night

But that night was also the first time to check and test out Instagram Captions, which for me might be a nice way to make vlogs interesting and later on was a chance to try it, But it was actually pretty accurate, But it was also time that shaving was needed to be done soon too. 

The Caption bath selfie

That went according to plan for the most part. but then it was fineally the day of RE village and well, actually no sales. but on that Friday, it was a run to work and a fly got swallowed up and I swear I felt like I had covid, from the coughing to the eye watering and well I had to spit it out in the end in a nearly puking manner. 

The Fly that spat out 

But then it was a quiet ish day, sure there was some visits to do at the end which was for wifi extension and this was not as long as i was worried about, but Here we are. Eventually it was the case that it felt like another wasted week, but accounts were caught up much better than before, though there are some bits I really have to think on how to create for it. This was lucky too since on another posting I got 2 days of lucnch in one go. 

The 2 days of lunch, the Pasta was for the Friday, the Chicken Tikka Slice for the Saturday. 

But i finally got home and with tea, it was nice to have a cold slushie lemonade, which was from the blue raspberry syrup purchased when it was the day out to Plymouth over 1 month ago. But with the added Vitamin C tablet, it turned it green. 

The Vitamin C and blue raspberry drink 

But then it was finally the weekend, which for me means another day of working and it was no change there, sure things had been a bit better and more people since of the weekend, but not as busy as it used to be. But on the way back from a visit of actually a new customer, I got to pick up things from Co-op since mum gave me a text asking for some chocolate and on the way back from that, it was time to get some good deals on Sandwiches too. Even though I ate all of them later on that night. 

The Shop from Co-op after work

 But it was the time to also hopefully get time to film, but sadly it did not. In this case the weather was a disaster but it meant we could relaxed in the day or get thing sorted, Which Actually I was about to learn a sharp truth, since it seems my tyre was going flat on the bike again. But my luck of not getting that right was well timing, since I might have had a spare tube, that was working, or so I thought. But before we get to that. It was announced about hugging being legal by the 17th May. 

It was funny since Curvage has been buzzing with interesting clips, from tiktok models ending up making videos on there, funnels from a lot of British girls being to try it out too, I wondered about hoping I could try it in my lifetime, There is a hope for it maybe but its got ALOT of trust to build up before it could happen maybe. But this was also the debate that calzone is the greasiest meal in the UK. Actually no debate on there, but it made me wonder myself about it but 65 people said its not. 

But this was then later on to be founded when in the afternoon, me and mum went over to check out on how her mum and dad were getting on, since its good to keep in touch. But since Rosie did not get the chance to give her a walk. So I was dropped off near the park and walked Rosie back to nans, while doing, the dog's ball disappeared, another dog took it. 

Rosie and the ball on the field 

But then we put the lead on and carried on to get to nan. 

The road of walking down, well looking back anyway 

Then we dropped  off the stuff and caught up with family. Then mum and me drove home but she wanted Spicy spuds, so we drove to town and then got me dropped off, and then for a £4.60 for 10 potatoes, it took 45 FUCKING MINUTES, I KID YOU NOT.     Like that is a bit of a joke to deal with for the least of it, but eventually we got home and had them. 

The Spicy Spuds

Then it was the case of changing the tube on the tyres, which worked fine BUT turns out it was one already with a puncture so I had no bike for that week aka the day after. Which means it was going to be a LONG day ahead. Especially with 3 to 4 customers to see on that day...

This was then time to work on it, So eventually getting up and trying the new trainers I used when i went on that Sunday outing, it was the best way to really get to run and run I did.  The jeans were stretch was it or something that feels elastic, but well it was actually a quick time of 1 hour 24 minutes. The Rain held off and I was feeling sweaty but the feet did not feel as badly numb as the previous shoes which is a bonus. 

But that was then the hour or 2 of relaxing during the lesson and then it was time to work and run my way to the shop to deal with preparing for things and actually another visit or well 2 more. So My legs were to carry me over to the shop eventually which was in 1 hour 35 ish. , which I did get some things checked out, a rep called. But by about 4pm, I was running over to the next place after posting an item, but that was going to be a fair bit of stress even on that part. But then it was to run back to town for one last visit for issues with safari which eventually lead to another issue on top but that was a week later to deal with the endgame of that visit. 

But then it was time to go home and then relax for a bit of more work to do online, but actually it was have a bath and crash out from the 38,000 steps + I did that day. Chorizo was a nice way to end it i will admit. 

But the day after seems to not be as massively painful as I remembered, there was a bit of limping I will admit but I kept on. More posting was the key to getting payments sorted too. But then it was another booking and the rain poured down, but this was a near opportunity to get some shopping mum wanted me to get sorted. Which lead to the trip to tesco. 

The £14.46 shop from tesco. 

The meal when I got home 

Editing this was going to be a nightmare but I managed to start this earlier than I planned and since work was getting better for have more time for myself. But work was to catch up and so it meant to put it aside, oh and also since using the video editing laptop as a till now the charger does not charge the battery, it means the point of using it as a portable laptop is now end of life. But another long day at work and mass effect to pre order meant it was more to plan out, whether this made a difference is to be seen. Plus working on line and watching RE8 streams is always a good choice. Well RE8 streams did help me distract myself i will admit. 

Nasi goreing for tea 

But then it was just that work, FF chat including guys that apparently spike food to help their partner gain weight then send pics of that to me on kik without me asking or wanting them but hoping for me to do the same is like actually no, thio is not how it goes and its creepy af, especially when the chap is like somerset wayu. But apart from that and keeping dry from the weather outside, since there were moments of it being from the wind and the stormy to the sunny and warm outside, it did confuse me to the best of my ability here.  But thats how things go. But Reduced chicken tikka slices are great too. 

The Reduced lunch

Then it was another weekend, which actually full of working online and then 2 long nights, which eventually it was getting to the part of me that was feeling drained, I mean drained to the port, I had a Call on saturday night and it was to visit someone on Sunday at 10am, Yikes. Plus then I was up on Sunday morning and my sight was blurry, like not fully but a small bit in my right eye and it was also a bit of migraines, Sure i got up and then got changed and sorted the customer out, but once that was done I was feeling a bit giddy and was even struggling to eat lunch. So i ended up having a 3 hour nap and then felt a bit better (not still 100%). 

The sunday Roast lamb for lunch

But that 3 hour kip made it to nearly 4pm and then it was time to get changed and go to deliver more bits to mums parents and check up on them, just like the week before. But my mum had the similar migraine thing to me the day before, so it could be the sign we both get exhausted in our own ways. But we greeted them and then we spent time to checkon a few things, such as preparing the food shopping mum purchased, talking about the Car he sold which I was offered and earlier tin the week very coerced to try driving but I had to and clearly did say I was uncomfortable which will only make it worse in the long time but for me now, its not the right time. 

The boot of bits to take in from the car to their house

Eventually we got home and no takeout to stop for on the way. And it was me craving a lot from the tea which was lunch, to then potato and lamb sandwiches and then more  chicken lamb sandwiches as well as ice lollies. 

The tea which wad the same lamb but it really had some extra bits like the sausages and the gravy 

Now then it was the finally time for the chance for the day after, feeding and also time to enjoy eating indoors for those that get the chance to, I know its going to be the start of the project I got tastecard for but its to make sure I can finally get the funds saved up for the summer of food in one way....

But for me the best part was actually having the first Monday off since the peak of the 3rd lockdown, and this was still me recovering, sure one message on insta from someone that went up a waist size but apparently goes to uni in manchester and has a thing for food too. But that and walking the dog in the pissing rain, lead to a home visit just after then once done, it was some nice soup for lunch. 

Tomato Chicken Stock noodle pasta soup with a nice honey spring onion curry sauce tiger sandwich 

Then it was relaxing and eating that and then cleaning up while finishing some more of Pokemon Sun and Moon season 3. But then it was finally time to get a review up and in the works, which was the review of a few months now. The Stripe Vlogging light. 

The box in the green screen behind 

A warm light selfie 

A Normal light selfie 

A cool light selfie 

How it looks when clipped to the desk 

And then it was back to work, sure I had the vlog to edit on the mac and ending up downgrading it to get the rendering to work and sure FF chat was okay and even work was good with not as many visits happening as well as amazon posting in work as the normal. The Tyre for the Bike was fitted in the tube and i'll find out if it ended up a bit weak from later on but for now thats all i can say....or maybe. 

First up was the fact it was still quiet in work this week so it was some more lucmhs and also it was another day of work and wednesday was great for a casserole, even if the mustard did get me a bit tummy acid burn.  Sure my sister got me some chocolate for helping out with her work';s devices over a whatsapp video call last week but sadly it meant the end of life of those devices anyway by a coincidence. 

The lunch on a quiet day. 

The casserole but with a lot of mustard to keep the flavour in to me, but it hurt my nose big time 

But after a walk and a bath and typing this up, to then listen to Classical music (from my laptop library not the genre of classical music) It was time to sleep at 1:30am. To then wake up to a lot of rain and also to then have to haul a POS box from my mums work to the shop and then one customer wanted to pop by the door to check the times when i did make clear I was not open yet. 

Which then it was more buts and pieces and more shop organising before finally getting some customers sorted then getting more of he Review edited before finishing it up tomorrow, but on the way back home was posting off AND mum calling to ask if i wanted a lift but then getting confused on where I was, it was best for me to run home and by the time i got the up the hill, Rosie and her were walking and we chatted. But i did get some good £0-.80 bits of chicken from central .

The £0.80 bargain of 2 boxes of chicken  

Then we decided to go for something nice for cooking tea, sure I had a customer call up and sure some posting  bits to get done but that was nice to have a chinese curry Paella with noodles and mayo. 

The Salad , noodles and the chicken seafood paella 

But there we have it, finally another post done and caught up, but lets be fair, there is still lockdown left to go, rumours of a triple mutation are breaking slowly into the news  and also the indian variant means it might not be end of  restrictions yet. But for me, normal life is semi and still bits to plan and money to make for me and the shop. But I did feel i need to catch up with the vlogs and blogs since Well I am a YT partner since February too. Also friends completed degrees and other friends have had appointments come and go, but saving up to make sure my social life gets to come back is important and then i can feel closer towards that search being complete, not the looking side but well behinds the scenes to make the reality happen of bonding. 

For now stay safe and eat nicely 


Friday, 30 April 2021

Working back to some normality - Lockdown stage 24

 It feels like here we go again, life has finally returned to some normality, work is back to the swing of things, even in small stages actually, but even with the prep done. There is much of family on small updates and also it was some thinks on realising small things about myself. But we now go for the new month and also alot of happiness is seen to be around too. But still to catch up on things is the chance here. 

The First Weekend of work

Well, it was actually over halfway of the first week of back to work, it was actually not ac scary as once thought, the customers were quieter and actually it gave time to help with planning alot of the work admin and also having a new account manager for work's supplier which she is good and nice but it also made sure of new projects to eventually work out. And the Tiktok to show how my mornings sometimes go with a dose of vitamin C tablets. 


##howto ##start my ##day of the ##first ##drink

♬ original sound - Mattie LT Marker

But also it was good news for later since a new review was to arrive for the first Kickstarter. I ever purchased, the Genki ShadowCast, which is a nice budget capture card and ideal for portable ways to play games on your PC or using it to make a webcam from a dslr camera. But we can see how it goes for the time being. But I will have to make time for this to work out. 

The ShadowCast

But then it was working on the jobs and actually time to get a fair bit of stock back on amazon listed.

With people going back to drink outdoors, it reminded me of the past life. From what nights out were like, it felt okay but also of how I never fitted in and never got the skills to pull back then either .

 There was a lot of scanning but it was to get most of the big titles out of the way to get some extra cash in the business  which will be for projects of some costs of paying later on. But it was also a nice touch for some lucozade as well. In the end it was very quiet on the after work front which meant for me it was good to finally get home earlier. But it was then the weekend, with plans to get done and family. It was good to finally start to go to grandparents to check on them as well. It was also to remind of loads of people going out. The smoothie was good first. 

the smoothie to wake up to on sunday 

But that was easily to get going with, time was going to be a bit more compact next week I thought, but it was also the time of getting the heatwave started, the weather was getting much better. So first it was the Monday of cycling to normal work, down there of get to the customers. It was also the time to get the plan of working as normal. B

The Work as usual 

So it was  back to getting things, the first stage was actually having to get some accounts sorted, some customers were coming in and  wind was starting to pickup on some of the times, like there was this chill in the air. But also it was a Resi Evil POS to put up an the lady has already given me 2 jumps scares and well its quite tall. 

The POS and the door

As I also was on a vist that evening to deliver a mouse, it was making sure I could go to Tesco to get some extra bits and boy did i find a great deal of Food I've not seen since going to London a fair time ago of nearly 2 years  ago with Itsu, which was a brand known up that way and even in Euston. And Tesco had some of it, well even if it was £3.75 each and looked really good. Plus more Clubcard offers like lidl plus and actually some larger savings there, even getting to use a Tesco voucher I got posted a month or two back along. 

The Bang on £10.00 shop with Clubcard discounts and a voucher used

But then it was time to go home and then get the next bit done and walk with mum after tea since Rosie needs her walkies as the usual times, but the chats with mum is okay for the most part. But the sunsets are the nice time and the camera apps have their times of need. Especially as the future was going on time with reflections on the trial and being guilty. 

The Sunset from the field

The sunset was darker on the mi camera

Then it was getting to make accounts on work carry on, it was also more times with chatting, since actually it was live chats on second job and also some flirting on FF which was nice but its sometimes to realise that it could be someone that might not exist. But that and getting the Phone finally setup was good, some tweaks I had to do for the £90 kit. But it was good to also get paid and top up the accounts. 

This was then the time to keep working and also the making sure of new plans to keep working online especially as I need to setup the plans for the future. But the important thing is that there is a rule to  respect people and women especially with the tiktoks of this day of April 24th to be free to be able to abuse or **** without consequences and not many men have made people aware of this. 

But As i got home one other night, I saw a bottle of #whatthefanta mum brought back home and it was nice to see a bottle of this special fanta about and then it really makes it tasty, there's a mix of Blue raspberry and also a bit of bubble-gum too. 

The bottle of #whatthefanta

But that night was also the time to finally have the food from Itsu.

The Meal with the dumplings and the gyoza 

That was nice but very doughy too. But after that was more working and also my hormones were starting to really play more and gives that self doubt too. But its also the time to go to autopilot mode to get things fixed up. Times to go for more of the watching of Family guy clips on Youtube still. 

Also more ideas popped up while working, Stock arrived and even Razer headsets and also the organising of the shop again since I got the plan of the spare bookcase from an ex customer's relative of mine the day before,  it was a bit scratchy but £5 is good. 

The headsets 

The bookcases and the new one on the right hand side 

Also new stock on the right hand side too. 

As I was organising, I had a chap ring up and try to offer me a unlimited phone plan then a S21 unlimited plan for £22 a month, I was getting confused and asked "am I high right now, since it feels like this just happened without any reason why and it was hearing like mumbles voices and repeating" But then it was time to help get the sign moved around and actually, I even hurt my knee from tripping over the vase, which then I moved to build the extension pole of the sign, then the day after, it actually disappeared. 

Since this was a day of dealing with winds which were STRONG, the sign blue around, it was hard to use it in public and well, it was a constant look over and in the end, the bungie cords for sack trucks were the best way to go. And this was also the time to have mini eggs for lunch which I've left there for at least 5 days unopened. 

The Mini Eggs 

Then it was back home and also mum wanted a second indian takeout in the past 2 weeks with the 20% off going on and so we tried a few different meals this time, it was nice and not too runny for me. Aftetr this, It was back to work 

The Indian Takeout 

Then it was the Sunday  

Which actually I've done that separately.  But shaving for that was a good choice and the views were lush even without the strong wind and then getting shopping done in town and also the texts from someone special are important. Which maybe one day it might be her joining me but there is going to be some panics from what was later to find out the final week of April. 

Windy views of the Hoe 

The barbican 

Stuff from Poundland

Before the day ended I looked for the kits for TGI Fridays and it was to be the see if it worked out. But the kits were very expensive. The Sauce was not. 

The Final week of April

Things felt like it was back to normal routine, sure Monday was a quiet routine and the wind had eased off and loads more amazon postings to finally ship off. But It was also getting to make sure that I was ready for the work ahead, But we start to then go to the next day, the landlord was chatting to me for the shop and did mention no nails on the window, So that had to be taken out for the way of getting it  removed and then the sign was back inside the shop. Then it was some repairs to sort out and issues with phones and laptops to order on another card, But this week was also o the stage of having to get extra bits too. But the issue with card payments caused yet another argument. That and a old supplier walked in the door which I did put getting stock off him for a while but its going to be hard to put it a nice way to not use him anymore. 

This was also the time to realise that I've made a revelation regarding customers are getting ghost calls from work number.

But then it was soon to have a sinking feeling when I saw something which did make me question something but I probably realised I felt a bit entitled to feel that upset about it even though it was that emotion of why I feel like that I want to make sure hurt isn't going to happen. It was also weird when chatting and being offered to visit Newquay this year for a meetup but its the hmm and is it real. 

But the day after the butterflies in my tummy and the thought still on my mind, it was time to work and also reps calling and contacting me was not too bad and a way to put that on the back of my mind, but work was still without the card and well that was going to cause chaos to deal with money wise and stock going up and down. On top of that, it was the time to get lunch for the first time since opening and well Oggys are doing cold pasties for £1.00. Plus the water from Co-op is a good idea too. 

The Spicy chicken pasty for £1.00

But also it was time to make this idea to finally got the vibe of the Salt and pepper flavour snacks from the Co-Op was there. Which that was for home but I had a fair bit of visits starting to stack up, So nearly 1 after another, But I did pay a whole whopping £1.50 in there, But we later on tried it to see if it was worth it, It was a 7/10 since it was a lovely flavour but very hot and spicy. 

The salt and pepper chips

Then it was trying to catching up wit the blogpost and also having to pay for a mix-up from amazon and that was a pain when the next day, the mix-up was shown to me more. I managed to build up some time to talk and type while also making the mind to keep watching cartoons to keep my mind not stressing out. 

It was also the time of the Pink moon which means the future will be time to spark into new things, but actually for me that is not the case and well it was also the time to look at the weather which was changing at the time. The moon was not pink but it was a different colour but I did not use the tripod so it was not going to be clear when I used it. 

The Sky and the times 

But then it was coming to the next day, which actually was catching up on repairs and customers were one after the other, photos took ages to transfer and then it was stock to book in and to finally crack down on the issue with the fake number. But then 2 visits were to happen after and it was the first time running in the rain and it was actually cold air out and I could see my breath, near the end of APRIL. 
But it was finally time to get home by about 7:20pm and then get to have a late snack which mum left in the oven, and it felt nice to finally cook it. Plus the soon to be final can of the iberian solmar lemonade which is like a fake san pellegrino. 

The nice leftover meal from Thursday night

But then it leaves me to type up this and finally finish it, sure I also had to realise that 2 guys wanted to send me remixes of some dnb music with some clips of the vlogs in, that might be for a end of year video but we will see. But for now it will be hopefully a video this weekend or another one since there's only been 2 videos this month. Plus soon it will be a hair cut and hair dye, one of my customers is asking me to let me get my hair cut from him. 

Speaking of which:

A Catch Up on the Resolutions: 

Well lockdown has nearly finished for the most and well it will only be the last 2 bits left of the economy, the night ones and the indoor dining, which hopefully tastecard can help make a filling and greedy experience for the future too. But I dont feel i've been able to catch up minus on one of the accounts  and soon it will feel like i wont be able to either. 

  • stream more - Still have to do this and I do have capture cards now, even another one to review 
  • Catch up with the  accounts in work -  Actually I have got a decent total and some income bits to sort, as it is now, I can get a sort of basic HMRC self assessment done. 
  • Be able to hug someone non work or family related - Looking towards after June if the plan is to be the same 
  • Complete at least 2 games in a story mode  - This might be tricky 
  • Do more Day out vlogs  - One down and a few more to go 
  • Schedule/plan out days more -  Its not as much but its getting there. 

But thanks for reading and Soon there won't be 2 week catch ups once lockdown ends in june which might end a lot of the post count for the past year or nearly 2. 

See you then.